i noticed for the first time today – because i can just kind of … not notice quite a lot of stuff … that it doesn’t say who posted a specific entry on this layout. heh. i shall now take credit for all the cool stuff on this blog … yes, it’s all me.
i’m in such a shitty space right now and can’t seem to shake it. you know how it is .. people’s patience runs out hey. mine too.
i can hardly feel my hands.
my working day’s far from over.
i feel heartbroken. i feel unwelcome everywhere. i feel like … eh.
yesterday my throat just spasmed a lot. today i am shaky, throat is sore, but only in a dull way. head sore. weepy. menstruating … should i be blaming most of this on that, i wish i wish i wish. day 3 is usually not like this.
i’m so worn out, not as in i need sleep … as in … been through the freaking spin cycle once too damn often.
i just needed to vent.
and if there’s any panicking to be done, i am really, really good at it.